"Why am I fighting to live,If Im just living to die"

Wow, is all I can say today......Its been over a year since I updated.Time flies cus it seem like I just started the blog yesterday. Since then I have started another blog(www.made-fresh.blogspot.com) and a twitter page (www.twitter.com/heartbreak_kelz). The purpose for me writing today is to just get a couple things off my chest. Im just trying to let yall in. Now if its one thing I HATE its misconceptions about me. I have heard it all over the years,Im cocky,arrogant,a nerd,weird,angry,spoiled,depressed,confrontational,an asshole,etc. I dont care what a persons opinion is that dont know me,I put off that image to keep my wall up, but at the same time I hold my "friends" up higher to know my true character. My friends should know Kel gives,helps,laughs,makes others laugh,goes to war for what he believes in,goes to war for his friends,h would give his right arm to a friend if they needed it,if Kel can help he will,whatever. I thought my friends knew im a good guy but no they see me on twitter,they see a couple tweets and automatically think im mad or sad, but Im just getting things off my chest. If a person comes at me wrong,you damn right I will defend myself,but today a good friend told me to pick and choose my battles because ignorance is bliss. I have been called twitter's "50 cent" many times on there. I will agree because I came up quick,I set up that persona of nothing bothering me,that when I do"real" tweets I get the screwface. When I go off on somebody im a bully,but IDC its how I was raised. Backing down is a sign of weakness where Im from,and yes I will admit again I go to far when going at somebody,but I worked on that and now ignore shit more days than not. My followers have there own notions about me and my friends have another the latter is the one I truly care about. Hopefully this entry ill get through to a couple people and help you understand me......to everybody I have hurt on twitter...I Apologize honestly......and to my friends understand just cus my tweets sometimes come off as something is bothering me, dont worry cus its not. I dont address real issues on twitter. Most of yall that know me have never even seen me sad,or heard me say im having a "bad day". Im too blessed for that. And those that think Im spoiled or whatever, know this.....I HAVE A JOB!!! I work hard for the things I have and things I do. Mommy or Daddy dont have to anymore. They do things for me,but cus they reward me,always have done that, so dont point a finger and dont expect a couple pointed back. Well its back to your regular programming.......thanks for taking the time out to read this if you did......this was just an attempt to let a few in my bubble #okbye