Relationships

I been in the game 21 years. And I know about the opposite sex quite well,not as well as I should but,what im sayin is Ima give a rundown of my past flames and outlook on the new flame. I have had many girls around me since high school. I was smart,played sports,and was funny,but I was never into the whole :groupie: mentality.......which is why I never dated a girl from my town ever. I would rather find a girl who didnt know what I accomplished and want to get to know me first not what I can do. So I have only had 5 girlfriends since Jr. high.I can be man enough to say none of them ended the way I wanted them 2. I had 2 girls cheat on me,2 we always argued over petty shit,and that last one was the one that hurt the worst. She fell in "love" with another guy. But heres the kicker the dude didnt feel that about her,and was fucking other girls. That really fucked me up. When I like a girl now,I have to establish a sorta friendship to try to see her character first before going full on. And I will leave from talking to a girl if its something hidden from my knowledge,I dont wanna know everything,but If I need to know it dont keep it from me and then lie. The smallest things can make me leave a girl "I like".I will leave too if I feel like nothings gonna come from us,like if its been a couple months and no dates visits nothing just a couple chillin......thats not enough im sorry. Im good to a girl when I with one. I dont cheat never have,I try to give the world if I can,so if a little time is all that matters most to me. Tell your friends not tonight Im hanging with my baby or something cus I do the same. I hate groupie hoes cus they see u and ur girl happy and they want the same happiness. Dont rush relationships,they be the quickest ones to end. Status change one day on facebook to change the next week. and who stuck looking stupid? it aint us,cus we dont care. The girls that flaunt there love are inscure,if u arent engaged there is no need to do that. If you happy with your mate he is the only who should know out loud. the others can see through interactions. I like to take my time to get to know a girl. I have had good i have had bad but I have not had the greatest type yet but Im working on that. and when I get it I feel like its all coming full circle. Real Realtionships are based around understanding,listening,communication,and security.

"Why am I fighting to live,If Im just living to die"

Wow, is all I can say today......Its been over a year since I updated.Time flies cus it seem like I just started the blog yesterday. Since then I have started another blog(www.made-fresh.blogspot.com) and a twitter page (www.twitter.com/heartbreak_kelz). The purpose for me writing today is to just get a couple things off my chest. Im just trying to let yall in. Now if its one thing I HATE its misconceptions about me. I have heard it all over the years,Im cocky,arrogant,a nerd,weird,angry,spoiled,depressed,confrontational,an asshole,etc. I dont care what a persons opinion is that dont know me,I put off that image to keep my wall up, but at the same time I hold my "friends" up higher to know my true character. My friends should know Kel gives,helps,laughs,makes others laugh,goes to war for what he believes in,goes to war for his friends,h would give his right arm to a friend if they needed it,if Kel can help he will,whatever. I thought my friends knew im a good guy but no they see me on twitter,they see a couple tweets and automatically think im mad or sad, but Im just getting things off my chest. If a person comes at me wrong,you damn right I will defend myself,but today a good friend told me to pick and choose my battles because ignorance is bliss. I have been called twitter's "50 cent" many times on there. I will agree because I came up quick,I set up that persona of nothing bothering me,that when I do"real" tweets I get the screwface. When I go off on somebody im a bully,but IDC its how I was raised. Backing down is a sign of weakness where Im from,and yes I will admit again I go to far when going at somebody,but I worked on that and now ignore shit more days than not. My followers have there own notions about me and my friends have another the latter is the one I truly care about. Hopefully this entry ill get through to a couple people and help you understand me......to everybody I have hurt on twitter...I Apologize honestly......and to my friends understand just cus my tweets sometimes come off as something is bothering me, dont worry cus its not. I dont address real issues on twitter. Most of yall that know me have never even seen me sad,or heard me say im having a "bad day". Im too blessed for that. And those that think Im spoiled or whatever, know this.....I HAVE A JOB!!! I work hard for the things I have and things I do. Mommy or Daddy dont have to anymore. They do things for me,but cus they reward me,always have done that, so dont point a finger and dont expect a couple pointed back. Well its back to your regular programming.......thanks for taking the time out to read this if you did......this was just an attempt to let a few in my bubble #okbye